Bruising, Losing

by Paul Piper

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released September 11, 2016

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Track Name: Take You Back
If only you could just relax
I'd take, I'd take you back
If only you could just relax

If you would let me be myself
I'd be free or whatever the hell
To be myself

We are weak, but we fight
We are meek, but we write

If only you could just pretend
To me and you that depression is dead
If only you could just pretend

If only we could make it stay
We'd pack our love in forever and a day
If only we could make it stay

We are weak, but we fight
We are meek, but we write

I miss you so...
I miss you so much
I miss you so...
I miss you so much

You took your case and then walked out
No don't you ever cast that doubt
Don't seem like something that you do
What is this reason I give you
And if I ever hear you sing
I will be the diamond in your ring
I adore the future that we share
I adore you
I....

If only you could just relax
I'd take you back
If only you could just relax
I'd take you back
Track Name: Not Loud Enough
Anything I can do
To make you feel more colourful
Anything
Anything you can choose

But I am selfish
From living alone
Being alone
The house in my heart for you to live is not the same

Bleeding out, red, cut
But maybe I'm just not hurt enough
Lighting the fire leaving my lungs
But maybe I'm just not loud enough
Maybe I'm not loud enough

Anything we can dream
To make our lives more evergreen
Anything
Anything we believe in

But I'm an idiot
I'm difficult
I'm complicated
Singer-songwriter ego

Bleeding out, red, cut
But maybe I'm just not hurt enough
Lighting the fire leaving my lungs
But maybe I'm just not loud enough
Maybe I'm not loud enough for you

Bleeding out like red from a cut
But maybe I'm just not hurt enough
Lighting the fire leaving my lungs
But maybe I'm just not loud enough
Maybe I'm not loud enough

You say you saw something
Behind my eyes
But maybe I'm already dead inside
Maybe I'm already dead inside you
Track Name: Barbara Boone
On the evening of the night before the dead came to greet you
There was a very odd atmosphere in the living room
Like there were many people gathering in there
(but there wasn't)
In a phase, In the shade, under cover of the moon

Oooh
Bar Bar Barbara Boone

In the hearth of the cauldron after all life had left you
Your bones were the brittle frame keeping you intact
Where the season of the soul departs, I came to see you
In the gloom of the morning after you are taken back

Oooh
Bar Bar Barbara Boone
Oooh
Bar Bar Barbara Boone

(NASA sample)

Bruising, fading
Exploding feelings
Where are you?
Bruising, losing
This floating feeling
Where are you?
Bruising and losing
These floating feelings
Where are you?
Bruising, losing
this floating feeling
Where are you?
Where are you?
Where are you?
Where are you?

And the light and the dark will now live inside forever
Between the beating of a heart and time moving in reverse
And that ghost that you saw outside your kitchen window
A horse-drawn coach procession now becomes your hearse

Oooh
Bar Bar Barbara Boone
Oooh
Bar Bar Barbara Boone
Track Name: I'll Be King
Hey you, quit moving!
Can't you ever stay still?
Have you nothing better to do?
Why don't you take a CHILL PILL?
(Legs and lungs, In the spirit of having fun
Turn around and count to 10. I'll be 1)

Hi Mum, I'm living
But I'm lonely up here
Hey Dad, I'm doing my best
Got all my energy in fear
(Keep in touch. Am I good? Not good enough?
(At saying all the things you wanna hear)

Dear friends
I am not who you think I am
Dear friends
I am not who you think I am
(I'm sailing at sea, helplessly downstream
I'm not happy where I am)

One day I'll find where I belong
One day I'll find where I belong
(Cruising upstream on a boat fit for a queen
To a lake where I can swim
I'll be king)

I know I know I know
I know what you're thinking
I know I know I know
I know what you're thinking
(I'm a a little bit washed out, a prisoner of doubt
I'm sorry all my efforts are in vain)

Listen, I love you
A little more each day
I worry that I'll come home one night
And I'll find you not breathing
(I'll seal my love in a time capsule of us
Send it into space for the future)

One day I'll find where I belong
One day I'll find where I belong
(Cruising upstream on a boat fit for a queen
To a lake where I can swim
I'll be king... I'll be king)
Track Name: Lisa
Lisa, wherever you are
You are beautiful
You are

Lisa, wherever you've been
You are all to me
Everything

Lisa, how is your heart?
You are special to me
You are

Lisa, wherever you've been
You are all to me
Everything

Are you afraid of anything?

(This morning, I looked out my window and all I saw were slate grey rooftops from here to the horizon. Yesterday it rained for hours and hours but today the sky is open and clear. As clouds drift slowly over above my head, I think of your eyes - the bluest, bluest, bluest blue that I can ever imagine. As blue as the sea, as blue as the sky, as blue as the blue in your eyes.)
Track Name: Don't Let The Ice Into Your Soul
How do you know that we are really here
And how do we feel each others pain
How do you see the sadness in her heart
As she simply doesn't wish to remain

When you walk by the poor man in the street
Do you stop and say hello to him
When you think about the loneliness around
Do you let it get under your skin

Chorus
You let the world
Into your busy life
But you don't ever really take it in
A heart isn't cold
unless you freeze it out
Don't let the ice into your soul
Don't let the ice into your soul
Track Name: Sorry For Everything
Plenty of suffering
More than enough
I'm sorry for making you cry so much

The devil is changing me
Shedding my skin
I'm sorry for letting you let me in

Bruising then losing my love

I'm sorry for everything
All your new scars
I'm sorry for making you cry so hard

The devil is chasing me
Watching me run
I'm sorry for making you think I'm the one

Bruising then losing my love
(where are you in this dark world?)
Track Name: Nobody Loves Me
(Can you hear me?)
(Hello?)

We were damned
Doomed from the get go
In the space
My shadow

Nobody loves me
Nobody loves me
Nobody wants me
Nobody Loves me

We were damned
Doomed from the get go
In my space
Is my shadow

Nobody loves me
Nobody loves me
Nobody knows me
Nobody knows me

Nobody loves me etc

We were damned
We were doomed from the get go
Here I stand
In the space of my shadow
We were damned
We were doomed from the get go
In my space
Is my shadow
Track Name: A Mountain Divide
There's a valley between us
A mountain divide
There's a river between us
And it flows so wide

We can blame ourselves
Forever to blame ourselves
We can blame ourselves

There's a desert between us
Hot as hell
There's an ocean between us
...And the tide ..And the swell

We can blame ourselves
Forever to blame ourselves
We can blame ourselves

And we rust
We erode
We decay
We explode
We want answers

We can blame ourselves
Forever to blame ourselves
We can blame ourselves
Track Name: Summer Smile
You were gone, so gone
I get to write my winter song
Let the cold fall down
Force it's freezing spell upon the ground
Throw more fuel onto the fire

I separate body and soul
Divide the mind, it's our control
In an empty room
Floating on the scent of your perfume
Did it all because I do

I will be your summer smile
In the kitchen for a while
Let your garden grow
Let your garden grow so wild
I will be your pick-me-up
Pour the tea into your cup
Let your garden grow
Let your garden fill with love

Distance pulls at longing hearts
All those long hours in cars
On a memory
Drifting on a liquid history
In a dream within a dream

Midnight air into your lungs
Barely breathing just for once
In that bed you made
Still inside your sleep you passed away
What more else can I say but..

I will be your summer smile
In the kitchen for a while
Let your garden grow
Let your garden grow so wild
I will be your pick-me-up
Pour the tea into your cup
Let your garden grow
Let your garden fill with love

I will be your pick-me-up
Pour the tea into your cup
Let your garden grow
Let your garden fill with love x 2
Track Name: No Flame Is Like Another Flame
I want you to know that I can
Take off my shoes and walk in the sand
Forget our cares, my brother and I
Aim the throw where the sea meets the sky

Always...

No wave is ever twice the same
No flame is like another flame
Admire the view for me
Admire the view for me

Goodbye

I want you to know that we came
To stand here and stare at your name
The window down on your resting place
The sun at your side to forever stay

Always...

No wave is ever twice the same
No flame is like another flame
Admire the view for me
Admire the view for me

Goodbye

(Ba ba ba ba ba barbara)

No wave is ever twice the same
No flame is like another flame
Admire the view for me
Admire the view for me

Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
Track Name: Something To Write Home About
Will you remember me when I am gone?
Will you look out for me when I am alone?
Gets me down sometimes
Spins me round my life

So gimme gimme gimme something to write home about
I've been waiting these walls or watching them falling all around.
I'm under it.

Will you be forgiving me for all that I felt?
Will you forgiving me? Well it's better than guilt.
Gets me down, sometimes
Makes me doubt my life

So gimme gimme gimme something to write home about
I've been waiting these walls or watching them falling all around.
I'm under it.

If we do return to this
Chasing our ghost
If we do return to this
On the North Devon coast

So gimme gimme gimme something to write home about
I've been waiting these walls or watching them falling all around.
I'm under it.